The level of excitement and contentment I felt arriving back on Railay, was one of those once in lifetime, never forget feelings. I used to feel that having a sense of contentment wasn’t okay. If you are content, what’s next, stagnant? But boy, was that such a false idea in my head. If I had followed through with not allowing myself to feel content on my Thailand trip, I would have missed out of such an adventurous, life changing, fulfilling five days.
To me contentment now means: being exactly where you are supposed to be in your moments. It means allowing your heart to feel full, and balanced. Contentment is one of the most a beautiful and newest feelings for me.
I arrived on the island, settled into my room for the next three nights. Railay is a bit expensive, and I do highly recommend checking out Railay Viewpoint Hotel. They have about $6.00 a night rooms, which is fairly cheap in Railay. If you are willing to spend a little more, I highly recommend staying at Diamond Cave Hotel. Cleo and I spent two nights there together, and the pool was absolutely stunning between the huge rock formation. You can’t really go wrong with accommodation in Railay, just be prepared to spend more than anywhere else in Thailand, but I promise you it’s worth it!
I wandered out and drank watermelon shakes, and ate delicious mussels on the beach and just spent time with myself. Railay provided that space for me, like no where else on this planet. I wandered the island, I wandered the jungle. I was home. Railay will forever have a home feeling for me. I hope every single one of you gets to experience that feeling in a setting outside of the place they grew up. It will bring the most beautiful sense of peace to you, to feel it deep in your bones that there is more places for you to thrive than just where you grew up. Get out there and live!
“You will never be completely at home again, because part of your heart always will be elsewhere. That is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place.”
― Miriam Adeney
I did this absolutely breathtaking snorkeling tour my second day back on the island. I did almost every activity in Thailand alone, and I never felt lonely. However, this snorkeling trip was all couples and families, and I definitely experienced feelings of being lonely for the first hour. It just wasn’t an open group of people to friendly up to, and I was dreading a little the next three hours. But I decided to venture out of my comfort zone once more, and hop on up with a family sitting at the front of the boat. Was that ever the best decision I could have made! I spent the rest of the day with them, and they were truly the most genuine, fun, and thoughtful family I’ve had the pleasure of sharing time with in a long time.
If you take anything from the words I write to you, please leap out of your comfort zone! It is always worth it, no matter the outcome!
I spent the rest of the those first two days, just having way too much fun. I danced my nights away with the girls I met during the snorkel tour.
I spent such inspiring time with T, one of my forever soul mates. We spent the days swimming in the ocean, and hiking to the top of this cave and seeing the sights. My heart was overflowing with beauty and wisdom.
“She is free in her wildness, she is a wanderess, a drop of free water. She knows nothing of borders and cares nothing for rules or customs. ‘Time’ for her isn’t something to fight against. Her life flows clean, with passion, like fresh water.” – Roman Payne
One of the most surreal and incredible experiences I have ever had, happened my second night back in Railay. I was out dancing all night with everyone, and T suggested we go to the beach area around 3am and swim with plankton.
I was sold, no questions asked. I was terrified, being that there was recent sighting of man of war jellyfish in the area, but I was not missing out on a once in a lifetime opportunity. Off came my dress, and there came the warm water rushing on to my trembling terrified body. When I tell you it was the most surreal experience I’ve ever had, I mean it. 15000%. I swam out as far as I could go until it was pitch black, and just kicked my legs and fluttered my arms around. The water lit up green every stroke I took. I had never been so high on life before. I’ll forever be thankful that T took me there that night, it’s a story I’ll tell when I’m 90 and off my rocker.
“Nobody can discover the world for somebody else. Only when we discover it for ourselves does it become common ground and a common bond and we cease to be alone”
Thinking back, so much happened those two days before Cleo joined me in Railay. It is wild how much can be accomplished when you wake up early, stay up late, and balance hard on taking care of yourself during the days.
I went to Thailand with every opposition on having a romantic experience. I was beyond burnt out from the three months prior of romantic roller coaster. Oh but life is so fun when it presents opportunists to you, when you are least expecting them. All my babes out there who are aching for a partner, take a step back and focus on you. The sooner you stop aching for someone to make the void feel a little less vacant, the sooner you will fill that void yourself, and meet your equal. Whether that equal be for the night or for the rest of your nights. I met this sweet sweet German boy out dancing, and ended up spending the following 48 hours with him. I saw beautiful sights on the island, hand in hand. I laughed harder than I had laughed in a while, and I learned some really fun German. I was in a really fun 48 hour love affair with a stranger. And to this day, we still keep in touch and inspire each other with traveling! Life is so fun. Thanks for being the goofiest and biggest wissy (wussy) I’ve ever met Luigi. You’re a gem!
“We travel, initially, to lose ourselves; and we travel, next to find ourselves. We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate. We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe whose riches are differently dispersed. And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again- to slow time down and get taken in, and fall in love once more.”
I will forever be madly in love with life after my Thailand trip especially after stumbling upon Railay, and I hope each and every one of you can find that true deep feeling in your heart.